Before 2012 year ends.

Well, 2012 I have a lot of stories. I swear 2012 felt like it lasted 3-5 months. It's really awkward that this year I have overgrown nail for 8 months and I go for a minor sugery. It's my first time in the operator theater too. 2012 is also just like a movie, something like dramatic,comedy and a tearjerker. All the truth also came out from my friends what kind of jerk am I. I also never had a friend died at my age. He's not my close friend. Well I hate talking about it. His name is Andrew ,pass away around June. He drowned .I don't really know his story. It's really awkward that one of my friends mom hate me because she thinks I'm a whore.Well I didn't bother about that. So we don't really sit together at tuition classes. I don't mind. At least one of my old friend sit next to me. She's cute and petite. She's really funny and we love prank calling our friends. And I also meet one of my old friend. I'm so happy for her that she's with a very nice guy, and I do admire her because she's don't really bother how she look. As long she will success one day. I also have a class teacher who's really strict. At first, yes she may look scary. But when you get to know her, she's quite good. She do care about us. Plus I don't made any enemies this year so far. And I met this chinese girl in class. I thought she's a girl who only looks up on herself but then I'm wrong she's just a funny and innocent girl who didn't always mean what she say. I even get to know two chinese girl(my classmates from last year). Well one is a real quite one. She always help me. And one is she is just like my old friend. "It doesn't matter if you're pretty or not. As long as you're happy." Well I really do wanna look good. It's really awkward about I have to attend maths classes every Saturday and Sunday. Felt like hell. This year, I also get along one of my old friend she's from 2C. We love having a conversation in facebook. She's a very good listener. She wouldn't said something like "oh" while having a conversation. We do talk about hot guys sometimes. I do got a guy bestfriend. He not gay , but he's a little bit feminine .He loves singing, he loves criticizing me . Still, he wouldn't hate me even if a lot of twats and faggots tease us everyday. He do help me on something that's really urgent when I didn't make it to school. Sometimes he mess up a bit. But I don't mind. The movie I watch 'The Perks Of Being A Wallflower' reminds me about my life . But not the part about how Aunt Helen molested Charlie. And I didn't fuck anyone yet. it really reminds me about the part When Charlie said ' We are infinite'. I also have to loving best girlfriends who I met them when I was still a kid. They will accompany me every day , we do stupid things together and we laugh a lot together. Next year one of us really have to face a big exam that changes her life. as for me and my friend. We are facing the final exam of Form 3. I hope we really made it to the top. I know this all will be stories and day. We are alive and I swear that We are infinite (via The Perks Of Being A Wallflower) Goodbye 2012. I will never forget about every single moment that I went through.

My Oversea trip in Macau

Yesterday I just arrived to Macau. I was like wow, This can be the Vegas of Asia. But the awkward thing over here is the china tourist here is a little weird =.=. And my dad keep scolding my brother because of my brother's stubbornness . I just bought a shoe just now and their is another cute guy but he's a bit feminine , he works in the shoe shop , he's really kind , before I go I smile at him and then he smile and wink at me. I was like " Oh my god . My parents will kill me if they saw this". Well today is my last day in the oversea. Good Bye Macau. :'(

My Oversea Trip 2nd dec-5th dec (Hong Kong)

It's been a long time I didn't went to the overseas. That receptionist guy is really hot. Well just saying. The last time I met this guy is yesterday LOL. The funny thing about this hot guy is he usually have us the wrong information. I wonder how is he like shirtless. About my trip in HK , I was having a great time with my family even I just bought a real tight Converse until my leg got blister. Plus I went out shopping 12 hours in HK with my family . I also went to Disneyland by train. It's just like a ride in the funfair when you stand and then the train moves. At first I was bored because I didn't get to go to any scary rides just the bored ones. All I do was riding on a Merry Go Round , watching parade and having a lunch with my family.Plus , it's raining. I finally ride on the scary ride and it's Space Mountain. I almost peed on my pants riding on that thing. Before we went back to the hotel we ate at some shop and then my mom start grumbling because she's wet (because of the rain) and hungry. When I went back to the hotel , I saw that cute guy speaking with a tourist with his cute English accents. aww~ ( The last time I saw him, So sad :/) Yesterday I come here to Macau by Ferry. And it's my first time , I got sea sick . Good bye Hong Kong :/

Hmmm

I know it's bored to read my blog. It is all NG and that means it is NO GOOD. Now is going to be a school holiday and I am really happy but something just haunt me in my mind. And it's my Maths exam. What If I bring that paper back with a moody face. Then I'm gonna be dead. Being 14 really sick. I never get threaten like this before. I get jealous when ever I saw my brother and my friends get cool stuff or something that they like even they don't need to study. Damn, if one day I am rich and famous I can get anything or do anything what I like. When ever I get frustrated , I will post something in my blog. Okay I guess that's strange or scary. But now, at this moment I really want to know who is my true friend. Opps I guess I have nothing to do but to ask this silly question.

The real thing

I know the truth why all this years when ever I go to school and I become a loner after a while. I just already know it and I have to accept this fact because it is true. I just wanted spill everything out here. And yes, I am a lonely person, everyday I wake up in the morning and when I saw a girl in the mirror and that's me. all I can said is " I am beautiful and I am great " even it's not true. But I live in a happy family and I have a few good friends who comfort me. There is one girl who will always be there for me and chat with me in Facebook telling me to be strong. we do talk about guys sometimes. I have two girlfriends(My neighbours)always accompany me. I have a guy friend who I always hang out with. He do criticize me everyday but he didn't meant it. Another guy friend he's a timid type one and He said that I am not that ugly . But the thing is we don't talk much and we never go out together before. Everyday, I will hear that pupil will call me fat ,whore, slut. Why should I care if I am living in a very happy life and comfortable life. I was wrong about my bad behaviour last year until almost all of the kids in school think I am a whore. I made that up and that's not true. Last year I do pick up Taekwondo lessons and I hate it. At first I didn't know why they hate me , when I start to realise that I was humiliating myself. To all the fellows that I have hurt your feelings. I'm sorry. I guess nothing more I can say. About why classmates usually don't want to sit or having a conversation with me , I am a bored person. I guess it is also about the bullshit last year. One of the kids in my class told me that I really need cutting schools . And yes , she told me that I am a bored person ,she told me that I need to skip classes , she told me I need to have some funs and I don't need to be afraid of the teachers or discipline teacher. She also told me that I'm a total coward. The truth is I am not afraid of the teachers. I really wanted to try cutting schools so badly. But the thing is I don't really want to have a bad record in school because even if I have a good results I won't able to go to college even if I have a good results.

i'ma grown up

I want to be a grown up this year I don't want to act really childish because I will look really dumb. Even I wanna be a grown up but...... I wanted a holiday and freedom forever. I don't know why I don't want to go to school this year. Is it because I'm missing something? Because now I'm thinking , No boys in my mind makes me feel free and happy. Now all I think about is Sucess and freedom. I really miss my perfect pitch. It's gone..... can anybody tell me how to get it back?